the bus ride

on they way home was about thoughts. Thoughts of me gone. :)

The lost of a nafa schoolmate still making me ponder and think after so long.
What if a doctor tells you that you only got 2months to live. How are you going to face it? undergo treatments? or face death positively/negatively? I dont know what my final decision will be but i want to make sure i'll leave with no regrets. :) To a certain extend, one is fortunate that he/she got two more months? Heartattacks seems fast but so cruel. =x isn't it?

I want to do things that i wanted to do, cherish the times with my families and friends, do something sweet to everyone that i care. In love with the one i love, apologise for the things i've done, and all the crazy thoughts in my mind! lol. I want people to remember me for....awhile. is it a selfish thought? Not like crying over and over that kind. Just...remember i did exist before in their life? I almost teared whilst thinking about this thought but held it in time. Its kinda a scary feeling. Not the fact that you are leaving to another world, but the thought of how others will manage without you. lol, i dont know.

It seems damn negative that i wrote this, but really, that incident really makes me ponder. Nothing emotional, just just thoughts running through. so no worries ya! hee. and yes, health is indeed VERY important! :) so people, clock normal sleeping hours, try not to smoke, try to eat healthier food, try to do some workouts and we MUST be healthy! :)

:)))))

and its tomorrow. yinghui is so scared. :(