ramdom updates...

Sept 22th...
random updates...

as chionging hwk jus like wat mani of nafa peers is doin. but, for the 1st time, i feel tremendous stress.. ya. stress. normalli, u dun realli hear me saying stress... some can see me stress n some see mi as low. as for sum, simply hack care me. haha.. But, cnt blame. im jus nt satisfied with my OWN WORK! BUT~ i dun wish to make amenment to it. im simply LAZY n there is jus nt enuff time. n im lost.

I got this stupid feeling inside me..haha. im jus tired seh... i began to ponder things... last 2 weeks..nearly everyday i stay in sku untill eleven. when i reach hougang, its abt 11.45 n last week, everydae i hear the stn pple annouce, " the last train to harbourfront has departed, pple approaching punggol pls wait for the train at platform A'. the feeling i had is, why mus i live in this kinda life where seriousli, i dun enjoy it!??! is this the so called life?doing hwk uuntil all of us r like zombies...haha... seriously, dun understand. i think midnite walking make ple thinks. n i tend to think alot. .. 'over-think' i gues. But, this field is like that i guess. when we step in the society as a designer, i guess it will b ten times more than wat im facing now. so, do i wan to be a designer?!?! designer= someone hu can tk stres n hand in quality work. AM I?!?! haas~. But, if i dun wan to be a designer, wat can i do??

i think no matter wat, i mus rite out the script n submit. i think i will b happier if i gt this award instead of crowbar or icon award. haas. i need some one to guide me in life. but, i knew thats I-m-p-o-s-s-i-b-l-e. lol.

thus, todae no sku, fri. usualli i go sku n chiong hwk. but today, i even met ron for lunch n slack n rite a long entry. haas. seems that im slacking. but, i enjoy it. perhaps , for me, the more stress i am, the slacker i am. the way to destress. dun do anything. haha...perhaPS thats y u dun hear me saying sayin stress. ytd frm 7 i oso slack till nine in sku. playing games, msn-ing in sku. blah. haha.. im tired. Strained~does it mean im giving up? NO! jus resting! =)


i think new enviroment does make pple change. mm, or shud i put it in this manner, we adapt n changes with the enviroment...?

wen with joc n all, i hab no wall, i speak watever i like n do watever i like. i knew wat im doin with you all. im sad, u all use u guys's unique ways to cheer mi n encourage me n nt despise me or pity me. THANKS~!

With nafa peeps, i seriously dunnoe. mixture of feeling. i dun feel happy. n thats the fact. esp my cls. or shud i sae i sealed myself up n dun let pple like mi. haha...perhaps they r disgusted by me..hoho...thats a too harsh word dou. haha..

feeling with 1S is however diff. perhaps they r the 1st batch of pple im with in nafa, craps n work EFFICIENTLY in library. the work we handed in is actualli quite nice. lol. n bcos of that, wen with tem, i fel relaxed. we played together in a way that perhaps others find it as stupid. We dunnoe wat the other party is doin, n we encourage each other i each perspective. so, i guess tats the nice part. yap. altough i used to say their bads sometimes. haha...

n hey pple,
snatch joc's line: 'clown oso gt tired de shi hou' so, pls, dun assume whenver i dun tok, im sad. jus tired n thats it. tired n sian doesnt equals to sad. i dun like sudenl care n concern. it freaks me off. asking bcos of asking n nt concerning. n bcos of that, i think sum think tt im asking for concern. bullshit! watever. xt teaches me hw to faced reality n i think, i knew how to faced n how to wear a mask. haas. its addictive.

with joc, im with white mask. with wanmay-purple mask, with pt n all- another mask, with nafa pple- watever mask. haha. im hypocrite. ya. i am. im attitude. im having moodswing. i gt split personalities.n i sucks. suck along with me, or leave me alone...

last but nt least, a happy n normal yinghui ending...haha... wanmay!!! 1stof all, congrats to you!! finally got a Mac laptop!!! haha... again, im envy n jealous of u LAH!!!! i oso wan!! haha.. buden no $$!! haha... =( mm...i think next month work le mus buy one. if nt, its too inconvenient. havin a laptop i dun hab to go sku everydae n cn a private space for myself. haha... i think like that wun be that stress isnt it?? play n work at the same time. haha....xcuses~ aniwae, congrats again!! =)

o, ytd saw a guy slapping a gurl infront of seiyu. IMAGINE! infront of seiyu. pple walking to n fro. perhaps the gurl started it 1st, but, as a guy, as a gentlemen, he oso shulden slap a girl in her face. i was like. wtf?! begun to wonder as usual...haha... girls fantasize abt begin with a gang leader like chen hao nan( seems familiar..mm..jocelyn?) but, y would sumone go out with a no standard no culture de hooligan?? n one that will slap u infront of public? love is power.haas. perhaps next time i will go out with one that is no standard no culture n slap mi..haha... pls stop me if thats the case...haha...

like i alwaes say b4 i end...THATS A LONG ENTRY!!! haha....wanmay pin point that out to me. haha... i din really realise after u told me. haha.... buden, this one realli long. haha..