'hypocritation'

23th august...

'hypocritation'...

Hypocrite.... none other than other people.. n thats mi lim yinghui. seriousli, i dun like this feeling. i dunoe y like that, i noe deep down in my heart i noe im pissed off, n if im the old mi, i simply will ignore or watever.. this time round, i machiam treat it as nth happen.. realli damn hypocrite lah! hypocrite mi, n so er xin the feeling. some times, i wonder, wat make people so fucked up... izzit stress? or is the whole society changing?!

hypocrites... haha..used to loathes it to core. now, im one myself. how great cn that be??? if this continues, i think i will breakdown? haas. thats a damn strong word lahz. nt to that extreme.

perhaps, tolerance=hypocrite? izzit? or izzit im thinking too much? over sensitive? i dunoe myself... who can ans my qns? n besides that, hu am i to u all?seriousli do u guys loathes me? or perhaps hated mi? haha.. we all are people frm the same village... so i think we feel confortable with each other. sudenli make fren from another village is difficult. perhaps im lackin communication skills uh? well. i doubt so though. perhaps shes rite. we soulden click in the 1st place. n dunoe y, the feeling resemble the feeling i had months ago. y do this kinda of feeling alwaes hapen in me. izzit realli my fault? or we simply should keep a distance? aniwae, we r now. lol...

if im over sensitive, i gt nth to sae. haiz, personalities do kills. perhaps frenships is no longer impt in this world.. then is reality the most impt? this hot sumtimes cold sumtimes i realli nt used to it. perhaps i should start labeling people. frens..clsmates...sch mates...ex-clsmates...haas. should i? maybe in few weeks time, i wil be complimenting on stuffs. well.. i dunoe. i think maybe by that time, i will get used to all of this...n yinghui perhaps will understand all of this shit ya? haha... guess so.

yinghui dislike loneliness. if im alone, i think, im still ok rite? im training. training to be a loner, a loner whom perhaps people will named mi as weirdo or even alien. is that a good thing? haas. sacastic uh. i dunoe my feeling now actualli. i noe im nt happy with it however im not angry or wat at all.., buden i dun wish for a confrontation or watver.im jus trying to act as if im ok with it. back to square one., hypocrite isnt it? haas. yinghui ah yinghui... fan jian dui ma? instead of saying act as if im ok, im trying to adapt to this kinda of life. i think alot of people will be like that if i go out to the society to work. haha.. isnt it? so if that will happen eventualli, i think, y not start frm here.since nafa is a reality training ground. train watever i need to be a designer. haha... don seems like mi speaking this isnt it.?

fairyland is fairyland. reality is still reality. alot of people is 'helping' mi to faced reality...how great!

i oli can sae im utterly disapointed in myself. UTTERLY.

to thos reading this.things is not that complicated as it seems. gt time i shall further elaborate perhaps? so no worries. jus wanted to express myself. jus sum nagging and complains to do. haha.. ok... after saying so much, i guess im feeling slightli better. i will n definiteli adapt to this kinda life. its not not a good life. jus curentli not used to it. so, after i get used to this kinda of life, perhaps i will start to enjoy it! haha.. well.. till then.. see. haas. jus in case u guys dun understand wat im saying, haha.jus forget abt it.

FORGET IT.